January 2012
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I want..
yanimo:
worththewhile:
To dye my hair.
To sleep next his warm body, but not wake up to him there.
To skip over college & just be into my ‘career”.
My career to never include a pants suit or anything ‘business-y’.
To blog more.
To see Ayana.
…Eh.
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I want..
To dye my hair.
To sleep next his warm body, but not wake up to him there.
To skip over college & just be into my ‘career”.
My career to never include a pants suit or anything ‘business-y’.
To blog more.
December 2011
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November 2011
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I feel like if you say you like “weird shit” then it’s probably not really all that weird. I didn’t realize I liked “weird” stuff until Ayana pulled my blue ponytail in 6th grade. Even today, I don’t think the things I do or say are any type of outlandish until people give me the side-eye.
Or maybe I’m delusional and not self-aware.
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I’m staring my pain in the face.
Eye to eye.
The pain is mine and you aren’t.
I’d much rather have the pain.
October 2011
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“I was infatuated with you: I am still. No one has ever heightened such a keen...”
– Sylvia Plath (via lavandula)
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I may be alone in this, but I get pretty annoyed when someone new comes into my life & does that whole ‘making me happy’ thing. I like to think I was doing a pretty good job of that myself & then you come around and show me up. I was doin’ fine! Don’t come along & make it better!
September 2011
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Every night, I pray my desire for success outweighs my desire to sit on my ass.
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tarrinj:
Sometimes I’ll see a girl so attractive that I think, “Well, if I don’t have that in my life, what really is the point in going on?” It’s like a serious physical thing where my body just wants to implode.
Hard times at Barnes & Noble.
Get out of my head, Tarrin.
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August 2011
4 posts
4:59 AM
First night in my apartment & I can’t sleep.
But the feeling of contentment is so strong..
A Rose Is Still A Rose - Aretha Franklin
Cause a...
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I know we’ll meet again, so it’s never me against the world.
July 2011
12 posts
I’m stuck at the airport. I’ve been stuck since 7:30AM. I’m slowly freaking out. Very slowly, which I think is way worse than a quick ascend into crazy.
So, recommend some movies for me? Links too?
It’d be very much appreciated.
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yanimo:
i have such little to say these days. summer’s got my tongue.
Home is where the heart is, but you aren't...
Dad: Love you!
Me: Love you too. Can't wait to come home.
Dad: I miss you. Not the I hope after you graduate you come home and live, just the I miss my daughter kind of miss you, you know?
Me: ...Thanks, thanks a lot.
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I never even cared or thought about being 20 till I came to stay with my sister & was excluded from anything fun. Please take me back to my college town where I can actually do things. The real world is not for me.
jfkennedy replied to your photo: Unpaid internship equates to gifts as payment.
What’s in the box, what’s in the box?!
- A ridiculously nice pair of sunglasses, my friend.
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I talk a lot because I’m an only child.
I ‘gossip’ (never spreading, just collecting information) because I’m nosey.
But I’m trying to do less of both. More listening & more living in oblivion.
Aretha Franklin - Natural Woman
Looking out on...
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This internship is really breathing new life into me.
Staying at school, subleasing a crappy apartment & taking a ridiculously hard summer class temporarily dampened my spirit. But being in Charlotte, the south, and working with my sister’s PR company has made me feel so good about the future. Not into PR, but the experience of working hard, writing pieces for a local radio station,...
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Being back in the South, I’ve become reacquainted with:
Ridiculous heat.
Just how “skinny” I am. Big booty hoes everywhere.
My slight, yet very distinct accent.
That I do not, & will not, ever fit in up North.
June 2011
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chahlie:
be happy for yourself
be happy by yourself
be happy with yourself
you deserve it.
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Monday of spontaneity.
Today I:
Ate deer on accident. Smelled like beef, looked like beef..
Got my septum pierced.
Watched two of my friends get the hood of their clitoris’ pierced.
Tried a new conditioner.
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“Everybody has a ‘gripping stranger’ in their lives… a stranger who unwittingly...”
– Douglas Coupland (via tarrinj)
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This guy I’ve been “hanging out” with tried to have unprotected sex with me.
I know, I know. To some it’s not really a big deal, or rather it’s not taboo or foreign. & I’d be lying if I said that I can not wait to be in a committed, monogamous relationship because raw-doggin’ has got to feel fantastic. But the fact that me & homeboy are not even...
May 2011
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I feel perpetually bored. & I hate using the word “bored” because I really believe only the boring get bored. But I’m being pushed to my limit. Almost beyond it. What I want, need, & crave can not be fulfilled here.
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I’ve recently realized I have become way more lax when it comes to people touching my hair.
Maybe it was just my mood or the fact that the party was actually fun, but Monday night I went out & tried something new with the ‘do & got hella compliments. With the compliments came lots of touching (patting, poking, fluffing, etc.) Surprisingly, I gave no side eyes or hand slaps....
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“-You can’t just turn on creativity like a faucet. You have to be in the right...”
– Calvin & Hobbes (via stellablu)
April 2011
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worththewhile:
Whenever someone finds out that my grandmother very recently passed away, it never fails, I always get a sympathetic pat on the back and a “I’m sorry for your loss.” It crossed my mind that this action may hurt because it can seem insincere, but I’m starting to see that it’s something else. I feel like people assume that since she was my grandmother, she was old and senile and...
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I remember at this skate party in 8th grade, I was standing on the side of the rink alone, (because despite what ATL depicted, not everyone from Atlanta is an expert skater) when Mr. Brightside by The Killers came on. I couldn’t help but belt out the chorus and this black & Filipino boy in my class that I was sorta friends with walked by, looking at me and said, “You would know...
cheecheefourchange asked: Happy birthday, have a good one:)
blackstarastronomy asked: it's your birthday? HAPPY BIRTHDAY! I hope it's amazing<3
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I honestly can not think of anything better than...
You don’t even feel selfish. Just.. appreciated.